Saturday, April 30, 2011

/le great return

How strange it feels to be blogging here on Blogger after being enamoured with Tumblr for nearly two months now. Everything here on VerbalBrackets seems so old and abandoned somehow. But a small update is in order, partly because I feel I owe it to my firstborn blog and partly because I have absolutely no idea who visits me on Tumblr.

The people following me on Tumblr are 80% strangers, whom I know mostly through common biases and such. Here, however, is known mostly to people I actually know and so feels a little more... secure? While it's nice to be able to be a long-winded, rambling airhead on Blogger, with no fear of losing the mostly sane, cheerful impression Tumblr acquaintances have of myself, the freedom to be nothing but a diehard fangirl on Tumblr is refreshing in a way, that I don't have to restrain myself to the limits of normalcy within real-life circles of friends. If I shared my favourite music here, how many of my few visitors would even bother giving it a listen? How many on Tumblr would, on the other hand?

So I guess what I'm saying is, VisualBrackets makes me so happy because it allows me companions who love the same band and have similar interests and attitudes toward some things. Even if I don't know much about them, it's fine because the connection exists through common interests. VerbalBrackets, on the other hand, is in truth a blog of things I want the people around me to know. I want my "real-life" friends to understand why I love some of the things I do, to read and see why I do some of the things I do. And in some part, up until two months ago, I was hoping they would be game enough to step out of their usual areas of musical interest and try listening to stuff I like before judging it (and me). You know, sort of like how I try to never disapprove of music without giving it a shot?

I suppose that might have backfired, whether because not everyone has enough time to go around being open-minded or because they think they already know what my taste in music is like (giving them the full benefits of doubt, of course). In any case, it doesn't matter now that I've been shown the wonders of Tumblr - any readers who were ever only here to read can now relax and not worry about me shoving my playlist down your throat and forcing you to act interested. I'm sorry if this all sounds very bitter - I don't mean it, really. I don't feel bitter about it now that I have a different outlet. I'm just trying to say, in my usual roundabout manner, that I'm separating my interests from now on. It's more efficient this way, or at least I think it's a good idea.

Of course, since I am still a huge fangirl, you can't expect absolutely no mention of my favourite five guys when I ramble. They'll still feature a fair bit, but I'll stop the incoherent squealing and video spamming now, how's that? Also, since reblogging picture spams will surely take less time and effort than writing out lengthy rambles, there will be far less activity here on VerbalBrackets - but that's all right, because who needs a long, mostly-pointless ramble every week, anyway?

On a mixed note, though: It's May tomorrow. It's a good summer month, chock-full of cousins' birthdays (the release of 'WHITE' notwithstanding), but the upcoming exams cast such a pall on everything in life right now. But hey, it's May! :)