long post!

Forgive me if this post comes out not so well finished; I've only just finished watching the footage of the big live tour, the DVD I put aside because of the exams, and I wanted to hurry and get it written down here while this feeling is still at its peak.

Seriously? After the few Live footages that I've seen, I'm now convinced that my life will be one huge waste if I die without ever having been to one of these things. I love these guys, so much it's scaring me. I'm not the type to go for boy bands, anyone who knows me can tell you that. I never liked any, not even in my foolish-eleven-year-old phase when I suppose the normal thing for any tween to do was to fall head over heels for Westlife or something of the sort. Even when I started listening to more varied music I never wavered, never loved a gay-ass boy band for anything other than their music. I never looked at bands as people beyond their music. Even KAT-TUN was initially just "that (eurgh) boy band with surprisingly good rock-esque music" - and I only noticed them for their unusual choice of sound, nothing more.

And then somehow, just somehow, I ended up discovering what they were like. Talk about life-altering moment. I don't even know how it happened exactly. Which is perhaps a little unfortunate, since it robs me of a dramatic experience, but I'm thankful enough all the same.

And it's not that I'm open to the whole fangirling thing, even now. A little part of me still cringes inside every time I tell someone about my beloved band, even though I'm actually proud of them. Some part of me still feels disbelief at my behaviour and gets shocked when I act so vapidly. And I don't think I have it in me yet to love other boy bands, simply because those other bands are too much like the boy bands I never wanted to bother with back then. They're just what I'd imagined boy bands to be, and that somehow makes them difficult to stomach.

No offense to anyone, but I can't stand boy bands with wholesome images. I can't find it in myself to like bands that produce stuff so treacly sweet, with their safe-for-impressionable-teens image and their exemplary lyrics. Neither can I find it in me to fully appreciate those that try too hard to build a cool, hard-boiled exterior - those with overly sexy lines and wild perfs. That natural, easy balance I'm partial to isn't something very common, bricked though I may be by rabid fangirls.

And it's not the looks, okay? There are a few girls I know and know of that love their boy bands for purely superficial reasons. And that's fine if you're eleven, and that boy on the poster is just so handsome, but for a girl of nineteen to act that way is very nearly frightening. It gets extremely annoying when these girls just assume you too love your band because they look good. Really, kids, stop it. Any normal fan would be revolted.

By the way... in case anyone thinks I love Kame more than I do KAT-TUN as a group, it's not true. He's my number one bias, but I love the band as a whole (not including Akanishi, not since he turned into the attitude-problem jerk he is now). I'm doing a 30Q meme on KAT-TUN in a bit, then I'll be able to express what I love about them in clearer detail. You probably don't care, but it's another look into my head, right?

So yeah. Back on that Live DVD. I can't say how awesome it simply is, can't describe the feelings I felt when I was smiling crazily the whole way through. I laughed, cried, changed for the better... okay, that last one was an exaggeration, but still. Whenever the camera panned up at Kame's happy smile, Koki's smouldering glares or Yucchi's hilarious expressions, I couldn't help but grin like a fool. Infectious energy, that was what it was. Aaah, such things make life a joy!

:)